Saturday, December 19, 2009

It was like.

A sudden breakout.

And there I was thinking.

Eh why am I. What am I doing.

Then the memories flash back.

Oh I was playing tennis.

And somehow.

I lost my temper for a while.

-Pancakegal-

4:06 PM

Friday, December 4, 2009

Fuck everyone today.

I had a fucking bad day today.

ROARS.

So much for being a "steady" friend.

And fuck the pork behind.

Keep peeping at me blogging.

-Pancakegal-

7:13 PM

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Hi. I am lonely again.

And then cry again.

I wonder what the fuck I want.

I wanna give up soon.

But everytime I thought of what will happen if I give up.

I cry.

Because I know you don't care.

You don't care if I give up anot.

You don't even care if I exist.

I think I should love myself more than I love you.

One more week.

Just one more week.

And...

You will never do what you promise.

I will never get the kind of love I want.

-Pancakegal-

3:03 AM

Monday, November 16, 2009

I can't believe I cry sleeping just beside you so many times.

Because I felt so lonely.

So lonely I felt like dying. Or maybe I am already dead.

I can't believe I willingly to waste time on waiting.

And then in the end. Cry.

I need a better life.

Someone who can makes me happy.

Not just because he finally talk to me and say some sweet things

And I go all crazy about it.

This relationship won't last.

Nothing last when it comes to me.

Nothing.

Since I am alone all the time.

Why can't I just....

-Pancakegal-

12:32 AM

Monday, November 9, 2009

I sms you today.

I dunno why I always need damn hell lots of courage to do that.

It's just a sms.

When I close my eyes.

I see you telling me that I am beautiful.

Exactly like that day.

And then when I open eyes..

I see you leaving me.. alone crying.

You lied.

Why do people lie?

It's kinda hurt everytime I think of you.

Though it's not that painful anymore.

Christmas is coming.

To me. I think it's just another anniversary.

4th year.

I am so sorry.

I am so sorry that I can only apologize to nothing every christmas.

I am so sorry that you won't be able to hear my apologies.

I am so sorry. I didn't mean it.

I am so sorry. I felt really sad too.

I am so sorry. I didn't manage to give you a name.

I am so sorry. A scar is not enough to ammend for what I did.

I wish I died on that day.

People like me don't deserve to be save.

Don't save me anymore.

It painful to stay alive.

Christmas... The festival I love the most.

Santa claus really don't exist?

I still gonna hang my socks this year.

Gingerbreadman is coming to town!

My favourite cartoon character.

Hehe. Guess I am still a kid afterall.

Kid don't murder.

But I guess I did.

-Pancakegal-

9:02 PM

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Why do I have to always cry alone.

It's not fair. That I am here crying.

And you are happily playing game.

It's not fair. So not fair.

-Pancakegal-

7:21 PM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I wish I died.

No one think I am worth living anyway.

When I tried hard to keep everyone around me happy.

And...still nobody cares.

Make me dead.

-Pancakegal-

7:53 PM

[ Pancakegal ]

+ Patty Chen Beiyi +
+ 陈贝怡 +
+ 17th March 1989 +
+ Snake 蛇 +
+ Pisces 双鱼 +
+ Pee-Poo-Pee@hotmail.com +
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[ Dislikes ]

+ Crowd +
+ Rashes +
+ Hypocrite +
+ Lamer +
+ Retard +
+ Pervert +
+ Backstabbers +
+ Bimbo +
+ Chao Keng Kia +
+ Bitches +
+ Animal Abuse +
+ Liars +

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[ Likes ]

+ All my babes +
+ Family +
+ Animals +
+ Food +
+ e Sea +
+ My Computer +
+ Cheokcheoky +
+ Dolls +
+ Anything that is black +
+ MMORPG +
+ Money $$$ +

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[ Wish ]

+ More Dolls +
+ Move Out +
+ Mammoth As A Pet +
+ Sabertooth As A Pet +
+ Cheokcheok New Girlfriend +
+ Own A Car +
+ Flight To Newzealand +
+ Income Of $2000 +
+ More Money +
+ Driving Liciense +
+ A Formal Dress +

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[ Past ]

March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
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[ Precious Ones ]

+ Katty +
+ Kaiting +
+ Joey +
+ Huiyu +
+ mini +

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[ The Ones ]

+ Huini +
+ Kar Mun +
+ Clara +
+ Pei Lee +
+ Siyan +
+ Rouhui +
+ Huirong +
+ Peng Shan +
+ Wen Xin +
+ Yawen +
+ Charles +
+ Alvin +
+ Sheryl +
+ Jeannie +

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[ Talkie Talkie ]