tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-32567531140534045682023-11-16T00:17:51.176+08:00The one that don't need anyone.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger130125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-75909386653277968002015-12-18T03:22:00.001+08:002015-12-18T03:22:42.776+08:00Dear Beanie<div style="text-align: center;">
Hi beanie. If u are reading...I am likely...still awake in the middle of the night?!</div>
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Its been years..since our relationship ended.</div>
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We met a couple times during my pregnancy.</div>
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Its was nice to think back..of our times together.</div>
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Well...I wonder if you even remember.</div>
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We met during IMOS. U were Bedok House Welfare IC.</div>
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Man. Still hurts when I think back.</div>
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I am married now and have a CUTEST BABY on earth.</div>
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I wanna wish you all the best with your GF. </div>
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Hopefully u get married soon. And always be Happy.</div>
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Den have a baby too..But u be rank 2 compare to my baby. =D</div>
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Too bad Beano didnt make it.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-86688630135863530552015-03-27T00:25:00.001+08:002015-03-27T00:25:08.529+08:00Wedding<p dir="ltr">Do couples quarrel before wedding?<br>
Pressure from both side of the family.<br>
Is blaming each other family the only way out?</p>
<p dir="ltr">I haven been feeling very happy for a long time<br>
It's like "u can't be with jerry before the wedding"<br>
And den when shit happen like Malaysia relative needed a place to stay, "can u sleepover at jerry house tonight?" </p>
<p dir="ltr">I wonder if my mum hated me. <br>
But what did I do to her? Or what I didn't do for her? Well ... I can always blame her for treating me like shit when I was young. How long can I blame her for. How long do I have with her? </p>
<p dir="ltr">Jerry hated my parents.<br>
I hated his.</p>
<p dir="ltr">Where's love?<br>
How long do we have to hate before we lose them all<br>
And start to regret.</p>
<p dir="ltr">No matter how much I gossip bout my mum<br>
I think I love her deep inside.<br>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-81826892603128491142013-11-15T18:03:00.001+08:002013-11-15T18:03:16.845+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
Its so funnny, being human being.</div>
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We tried we tried we tried and fail.</div>
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Why do we have to keep trying.</div>
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Just for a moment that we might be feeling happy?</div>
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Another chapter of my life has ended.</div>
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How many more to go before i can close this life.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-33323305724094593492013-10-20T03:39:00.001+08:002013-10-20T03:39:45.365+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
Its finished.</div>
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I've learn to let go.</div>
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its kinda disappointing to know, someone you thought</div>
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you might be spending the rest of your life with</div>
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wont even bother to change for your sake.</div>
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lol how naive can i be. Theres no one in this world</div>
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will make sacrifices i made. Not for strangers not for friends.</div>
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not for relative and definately wont be for me.</div>
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Thanks for all the times you spend on me.</div>
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I grew up dude.</div>
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Its really time to let go.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-8145948522953531022013-09-30T21:05:00.000+08:002013-09-30T21:05:03.798+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
I am very disappointed in you.</div>
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I thought I only had you in this whole world.</div>
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and thanks for telling me straight in my face.</div>
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If a outsider were to hurt me.</div>
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Its okay, because it doesnt really matter in the end.</div>
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But its a different story if its you.</div>
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Cause dude you only get one chance.</div>
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But I've given you alot.</div>
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I WILL NOT TAKE SHIT FROM ANYONE IN THIS WORLD ANYMORE.</div>
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SCREW U ALL.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-20053387701747758002013-09-08T05:44:00.000+08:002013-09-08T05:44:27.873+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
why am i so stupid</div>
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Ok i feel smarter already.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-49965992690509503372013-09-02T07:37:00.002+08:002013-09-02T07:37:39.030+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
I cant forget about it.</div>
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Wad can I say. </div>
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Now I know I have a big fat mouth.</div>
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Shouldn't have promise and lied.</div>
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I think I am weird now. </div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-35417244331953473262013-08-28T23:22:00.000+08:002013-08-28T23:22:31.453+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
Hoping, to get myself back.</div>
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It's not right to feel like that.</div>
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Unsure of my own feelings.</div>
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Act like a son of a bitch.</div>
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Caring for people that will never appreciate.</div>
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Loving someone that I don't even know if he's worth it.</div>
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Yes i am talking about U, Jerry Yeo.</div>
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I am sick of your attitude.</div>
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I am so freaking sick of it.</div>
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Why in the world are we together in the first place.</div>
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Why do u have to make me feel like that.</div>
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What the fuck is wrong with me.</div>
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-17757015061968067052013-01-11T00:10:00.001+08:002013-01-11T00:10:18.379+08:00???<div style="text-align: center;">
Hi blog, its been a long time. I feel kinda lost right now.</div>
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I have, everyone knowing who i am, saying i am stupid.</div>
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Everyone who knows who i am says i am guillible.</div>
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Everyone who knows me, says that i look more like "food" than human.</div>
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Remember those time, i feel like i am shrek.</div>
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Being force into a corner, people with their pitchforks and spear trying to poke the rashes girl off.</div>
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What i really want, was someone. Someone that is kind enough</div>
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to shake my hand. Someone who is brave enough to say Hi to me even if he or she is hoping she wont get infected by my skin or something. Its just that now i grew up, knowing, my skin </div>
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is not something that can harm anyone. Just that.. </div>
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I wanna be kind to the someone in need of help.</div>
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Maybe they feel the same as i do at the moment.</div>
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Maybe they really needed someone to hold their hand.</div>
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Appco have just shown me. How realistic this world is.</div>
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I was in fault for being so stupid.</div>
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But, I was really happy being with her, cause it just makes me feel like i saw another Patty in this world. </div>
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She's so much like me. Eat alot, talk cock alot, having fun alot whatever situation, competitive enough to make me stress.</div>
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but we just not the same.</div>
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As soon as i left, i knew i lost something. So next time when your mum tell u kids, "Friends are not forever but family is"</div>
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Please listen well and u know, dun be like me.</div>
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Talking about family, I kinda lost track in most of the things.</div>
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I wonder why am i always the last to know.</div>
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Last to know that my cousin got pregnant.</div>
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Last to know about my grandmother condition.</div>
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Last to know that my grandfather fainted.</div>
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Last to know my Yi Zhang parents pass away.</div>
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Sometimes i spend too much time with Jerry. I thought its was like freedom, away from naggy people and irritating people.</div>
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But whenever i step into my house, I have my mum sitting down at the sofa, and said "Eh u coming home tonight!"</div>
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Well she just look happy. My dog, my precious little dog.. It really breaks my heart. So I am not talking about it.</div>
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Where else, spending time with Jerry is getting more and more frustrated. Its the constant irritation he try to do on me and he think its fun. Its starting to accumulate. </div>
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I was not welcome by his family. He sleeps and sleeps the whole of whatever day. </div>
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Was it the buying and planning for HDB flat officially announce us husband and wife? Or what makes me feel like its gonna be him i sticking with for the rest of my life.</div>
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Cause whatever it is, its starting to turn into doubt.</div>
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But why am i still holding on. If i can still be hurt by his words. He must be someone important to me.</div>
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Where are you, courage.</div>
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I need some courage.</div>
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I dun wanna decide anymore.</div>
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I want to change into someone different. Is this a mask or something, which is real? I seriously..need to sleep.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-40304882159171705732012-11-10T00:56:00.001+08:002012-11-10T00:56:19.946+08:00Doubt<div xmlns='http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml'>I dunno anymore. Clown will always be a clown.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-9631139192017405422012-04-21T00:27:00.000+08:002012-04-21T00:27:19.811+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
My life is in a mess.again.</div>
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its like what's new.</div>
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I hope i have the determination to do wat i meant.</div>
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Maybe...not. </div>
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Sometimes, lame decison will cause you to lose something.</div>
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And I dun wan to lose anything.</div>
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Its happiness. Which i haven felt in a long time.</div>
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Excited, Happy, Shy, Eager to know more.</div>
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Only for that 30 minutes.</div>
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I thank you for that.</div>
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</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-83955695465150509822012-04-16T21:15:00.002+08:002012-04-16T21:16:33.951+08:00<div align="center"> I am down on luck ever since i cut my hair.</div><div align="center">I dunno what i want. I dunno what i am anymore.</div><div align="center">Its like " hey hey just play along with whoever i am meeting "</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center">I wonder if my popo is watching me.</div><div align="center">Please be happy up there.</div><div align="center">If not, just bring me along.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-8004746991844764532011-11-26T03:34:00.003+08:002011-11-26T03:47:31.396+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"> Romance<br />A word that bring happiness.<br /><br />What is romantic?<br />How can couples still be romantic after they know<br />every single thing about each other.<br /><br />Am I in rebellious mode?<br /><br />Do you think, "Romance" is ever gonna happen on me?<br /><br />I wanna be myself.<br />I mean like how i use to be.<br />I wanna chiong Badminton after tennis to realize how different and fun<br />game can be holding different racket and using different ways to play.<br />And then soak myself in the cold swimming pool in late night.<br /><br />Is it because swimming pool is so far now so I have to quit being myself?<br />Is it because there is no tennis court and badminton court anywhere<br />so I have to quit them?<br /><br />I wanna slim down. I don't feel happy looking in the mirror and kinda think<br />that I grew fatter.<br />Its not about having super good figure or whatever cause I'll never have a good figure<br />with those muscular arms.<br />Its just about being myself.<br /><br />My dearest grandmother.<br />I hope you rest in peace.<br />I'll never forget you.<br />You are my hero, save me from my mummy cane,<br />belt,cloth hanger,newspaper, kneel or durians shell.<br />You even call the police when she go over the line.<br />I really don't mind dying right now just to be with you.<br />I love you PoPo. I love you.<br /><br />Beanie is on my mind right now.<br />Its like, hey Beanie how's your life.<br />I hope he understand girls more, I mean now and erm not like last time.<br />Be more patience with girls, cause we are born complicated.<br />Why is everyone around me getting older and older.<br />And of course me too. T_T<br /><br />I miss my ship crew.<br />Why do they have to you know, seperate. Some ORD, some posted out<br />some went here and there.<br />We used to be so bonded, So bonded I think we are glued together.<br />Maybe that's just what I think. I really never know how the other thinks.<br />Maybe they just think its a good thing I was gone.<br />And now there's a new female onboard. Maybe she wont talk as much as I do.<br />And won't disturb people as much as I do.<br />Wont kaobei as much as I do. =\<br />This is call self-hurting. FULLSTOP.<br /><br /><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-81758301152756791742011-11-04T22:27:00.000+08:002011-11-04T22:28:00.082+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">i WANNA be alone.<br />FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE<br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-22623778696725442922011-10-29T14:37:00.002+08:002011-10-29T14:39:25.223+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">At this very moment.<br />I have no feelings.<br />No feeling of angry, sad or happy. No feeling at all.<br />I wanna be alone forever.<br />I dun need anyone.<br />What I need is to be alone with myself.<br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-17118250744313075742011-10-09T06:52:00.002+08:002011-10-09T06:55:22.059+08:00<div style="text-align: center;">Exactly one year ago, i stop blogging.<br />I don't know why and i don't want to know.<br />Blogging is like, talking to myself..<br />Or.. showing people how I feel. And den... for wat?<br /><br />Maybe its just a better way to talk to yourself when u blog.<br />instead of physically talking to yourself.<br />You talk to urself mentally. =\ ?_?<br /><br />Does couples become strangers after a year being together?<br />You think the opposite of you complete you.<br />Maybe i am wrong.<br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-46290432452347536402010-10-07T12:13:00.001+08:002010-10-07T12:15:12.127+08:00<div align="center"> It's very difficult to live on.</div><div align="center">With different feelings everyday.</div><div align="center">Let there please just me alone.</div><div align="center"> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-16598690971740052102010-09-12T03:02:00.001+08:002010-09-12T03:02:40.433+08:00<div align="center"> I wanna be free.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-6265257702843074622010-06-30T21:41:00.000+08:002010-06-30T21:43:53.020+08:00<div align="center">When I thought I was totally broke.</div><div align="center">And...Hahahaha I found out I can withdraw my money from savings</div><div align="center">through atm machine. Although is not a very good thing. You know.</div><div align="center">I gonna put all my bonus in next month.</div><div align="center">I promise promise!</div><div align="center">Always keep withdrawing. =\</div><div align="center">So sad. My saving account is always empty.</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Have fun with the NE tour today~~</div><div align="center">Will post lots of photo later~ </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-76105406457717755352010-06-27T18:02:00.000+08:002010-06-27T18:03:17.105+08:00<div align="center"> I am so getting boring.</div><div align="center">=\ Feel kinda weird.</div><div align="center"> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-79121250585576827342010-06-27T05:33:00.000+08:002010-06-27T05:35:34.855+08:00<div align="center"> I seriously dont like ppl spoiling my cooking.</div><div align="center">and i dont like people who eat disgusting food.</div><div align="center">You know add abit of chilli, ma you and then the noodle become lap sap.</div><div align="center">it like EEEEE</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-28196797285909769252010-06-20T04:55:00.001+08:002010-06-20T04:55:28.224+08:00<div align="center"> I get to cry very soon~! =D</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-83964288720508615052010-06-17T15:00:00.001+08:002010-06-17T15:02:19.023+08:00<div align="center"> I tried to deliver.</div><div align="center">What u expect from me.</div><div align="center">I am in pain.</div><div align="center">I don't wanna be Miss Rambo-ness anymore.</div><div align="center">I wanna cry.</div><div align="center">Please at least, take a look at me.</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-66010241231923457322010-06-15T21:08:00.002+08:002010-06-15T21:11:17.220+08:00<div align="center"> Went for massage and rebond.</div><div align="center">I look like a total mushroom now.</div><div align="center">Should have thought of it.</div><div align="center">As in, everyone says i am a mushroom when i cut my hair.</div><div align="center">And now i go and rebond it!</div><div align="center">It's SO mushroom!!</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Today DC was shag.</div><div align="center">But we manage to up lvl.</div><div align="center">I can see everyone hardwork and happiness after that.</div><div align="center">=D SO HAPPY.</div><div align="center">I am just glad I didnt do anything wrong.</div><div align="center">HAHAHA!</div><div align="center"><br /></div><div align="center">Need to start on my maths soon!</div><div align="center"> </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3256753114053404568.post-1931556742568275182010-06-13T00:16:00.001+08:002010-06-13T00:16:25.268+08:00<div align="center"> My prawn mee is nice!!!</div><div align="center">Muahahahahaas!!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1