Wahahaha, I miss my Baby Little John.

Muacks.

I love you John!

I realize I need to get some sleep.

For tomorrow fire fighting.

But, talking so much to my sir, I can't sleep.

I need to accept changes?

Changes like, you love me no more?

I not going to accept it.

You were sad when I left you the last time.

Like I said I won't make you sad anymore.

So even if you are going somewhere higher.

I just stay down here.

And not gonna accept any changes.

What if u feel sad.

What if u are lonely.

What if u just regret?

What if u want me back.

Is it all this things that keep me from

loving somebody else.

And..feeling so angry when somebody else talk to me.

I felt drain. I think i cannot take it anymore.

I am very not happy.

I hate you. I hate you.

I hate you Benjamin sit.

Whatever u said is a lied.

All the I love you is fake.

You lied.

You play with my feelings.

You lied.

You said you love me.

You said I am beautiful.

You lied.

Why did you do that.

I fucking hell hate you.

I hate you I hate you.

Why do I have to care how you feel

even after how you treat me.

Why do I bother so much about you feeling

sad or lonely. Fuck me.

I hope i get brain-wash or just leave this earth

So i wont remember all the lies u told me.

It's saddist to be so soft hearted.

Please, Its time to wake up. Bitch.

What the hell am I thinking?

Willingly to be played and play by people?

Fuck myself

John, I love you.

Well, tiring day.

DC is not fun at all.

Specially when you didn't get a nice role to play.

I wanna be the attack party!!!

ROARS!

Well tomorrow is fire fighting.

>.>

Gonna be another tiring day.

Nicholas going Australia tonight.

Wee, Gonna have lotsa presents!

Muahahahahahas.

I miss my baby John.

Life is alot better for me now.

But feel abit sad sometimes when I want to cry and can't.

Dunno what happen to me.

My blood boil when any guys touches me.

Specially someone onboard.

ROARS.

Except for John.

Gonna hug him till he choke!

Muahahahas.

Muacks Muacks Little John

I love you, John.

Getting ready for DC later.

.... That all.

What a mother fucker.

I hate mother fucker.

Go fuck ur own mum, Shit.

I did my best. I do everything I can for you.

It's partially my fault for the end result.

Why can't I made myself see that it's hopeless.

Why am I trying so hard to mend.

Time to let go, again.

Played Tennis with my little John John.

So cool. Oh my god.

After that went to eat.

And then went for swimming.

So cute. Oh my god.

Man. I sure love my John John.

Muacks.

So tired. Gonna sleep soon.

I mean now.

Sibei Shag!!!

Just reach home.

Sailing was damn shag.

It's just a one day thing. Bleahs.

Didn't sleep much..

So down. So down.

Don't be.

Why am I cheering myself up again?

Tomorrow SR.

Going back camp to study.

Bored. Will call Nic out tomorrow and rape him.

Yeap.

That it.