I realize I need to get some sleep.

For tomorrow fire fighting.

But, talking so much to my sir, I can't sleep.

I need to accept changes?

Changes like, you love me no more?

I not going to accept it.

You were sad when I left you the last time.

Like I said I won't make you sad anymore.

So even if you are going somewhere higher.

I just stay down here.

And not gonna accept any changes.

What if u feel sad.

What if u are lonely.

What if u just regret?

What if u want me back.

Is it all this things that keep me from

loving somebody else.

And..feeling so angry when somebody else talk to me.

I felt drain. I think i cannot take it anymore.

I am very not happy.

I hate you. I hate you.

I hate you Benjamin sit.

Whatever u said is a lied.

All the I love you is fake.

You lied.

You play with my feelings.

You lied.

You said you love me.

You said I am beautiful.

You lied.

Why did you do that.

I fucking hell hate you.

I hate you I hate you.

Why do I have to care how you feel

even after how you treat me.

Why do I bother so much about you feeling

sad or lonely. Fuck me.

I hope i get brain-wash or just leave this earth

So i wont remember all the lies u told me.

It's saddist to be so soft hearted.

Please, Its time to wake up. Bitch.

What the hell am I thinking?

Willingly to be played and play by people?

Fuck myself