I haven blog for years!!

Now I am back.

With lots of problem as usual.

Let's start with my face.

Looking around. There's no one else that got a face like me.

I thought god is suppose to be fair.

Someone once told me. God is fair.

Since he given you such nasty skin.

But still he gives you a pretty face. ( Thats was when I am young )

Then now what. Nasty skin and ugly face.

I was walking. And then I saw this nerd bitch.

She wore those outdated glasses. And she got long nice hair.

And white coloured skin. Zzz.

Then somehow I think is time I fixed my hair.

I dun wanna go around wearing hairband everyday like a 100% auntie.

Then.. I cant even fixed my own hair.

I am happy today.

Cause I find myself quite useful.

I help my Coxswain with his admin job.

And then ship comes back.

The atmosphere was stern while..people waiting for results.

And there I was smiling and talking cock as usual.

Maybe I shouldn't. My intention was to make people happy.

No matter what the outcome is.

Then...again. I was excused from sailing.

What's there to be happy about.

People might think I am so happy I keep smiling because I don't have to sail.

I love my job.

I want to stay onboard Resilience forever.

Why can't they understand me for abit.

I intend to upgrade soon. =D

I see Porkie click the "Start Game" over and over again.

Same thing again.

Each time he click, my tears wanna fall.

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