U wont treat me good anymore?

Wont love me anymore?

No more morning and goodnight kiss.

Because I wont be able to see you sleep through the night til morning.

I am pathetic.

One after another.

And it's always me.

What the hell happen to me?

I failed my IPPT.

Which is not possible!!

Give me a reason why.

Okay, maybe because I am having cough.

I had difficulties breathing just now.

And I feel faint. So I started walking.

What happen!!? I was never this weak!

I dun faint! Why am I feeling faint?

Am I dying? Omg. I think I got some terminal illness.

It's time to do a full body check up.

Maybe, I didnt drink enough milk.

Milk is my source of energy!

Hais.

All of the above is craps.

This is not what I wanna talk about.

Is just a mother fucking IPPT.

U siam me.

That's all I know.

Is my own fault anyway.

Omg is fun playing dota!!

Jerry again. He been planting lots of bulbs in my life.

Just these 2 days.

It's normal to feel sad.

So i take it as it's normal.

Hahaha.

I read all my previous blog.

It seems like, I change alot.

From the day beanie left.

Then about John. Then you.

Well, always end with me getting sad only.

I have a bad dream.

I couldn't sleep.

Thanks to Jerry that company me til morning.

He bought me to out.

Thanks alot.

Well Well. It's like a cursed.

From long long time ago.

I have differentiate the different kind of pain.

And I realize, it's only a matter of time to numb.

I am now. Numb.

Thanks to me, and you.

你知道为什么人会想要死吗?

我想逃避。

我一直都在逃避。

可是现在，我已经没有力气在逃。

也没有勇气面对。

为什么我没有。

为什么不敢在快一点。

为什么不敢在大力一点。

为什么要救我。

Area cleaning 1.

It's time i fixed things back to how it used to be.

Why am I so different now.

Remember people used to use force on me so I talk.

But now I talk non-stop.

No one will ever believe I only starts talking at the age of 2.

Area cleaning 2.

I need to clean my brain.

Wash away all the bad bad memories.

What bad memories...

Memories like...you.

Area cleaning 3.

I am starting to train myself.

To live a life, without you.

From no onwards.

I don't expect anything from you anymore.

Is just a matter of time to goodbye.

Peace, til I have the courage.

Area cleaning 4.

I shouldn't enjoy life so much.

I feel like I am throwing money away.

Area cleaning 5.

It's time for me to quit.

All the bad habits.

Like scratching.. and Sss..

Bad for health.

Area cleaning 6.

MY room is in a mess.

HAHA. Mount Everest is just in my room.

My dolls, need bathing.

hundreds of them.

Area cleaning 7.

I decided to quit badminton.

Those days were bad.

They are so mean to me.

They make me cry.

No one knows about it though.

Rephrase, No one cares about it.

Area cleaning 8.

I'll show the world how important I am.