I wish I died.

No one think I am worth living anyway.

When I tried hard to keep everyone around me happy.

And...still nobody cares.

Make me dead.

It's sad, when I thought of how they used to treat me last time.

I put in so much. I gave so much.

And then I get nothing, NOTHING in return, but pain.

I hope this time round is not.

I had a quarrel with Fat Pork on friday.

I cry while walking on the way home.

Why does all this things happen on me.

But then I didn't see how much effort he put in.

But after that bad friday.

I realize, I don't have to a idiot to wait and wait at home for his return.

Meanwhile I can do lotsa stuff like, swimming and going out for shopping.

I shouldn't be so stubborn.

Even after all my ex-bf break up with me because I am stubborn.

And Fat Pork can endure me for so long.

Isn't he sweet.

I reborn my hair today.

Finally I felt, newer and much more alive and kicking.

Seriously, HAIR does matter.

Christal has move to AMK. My hair stylist.

Haha. Sound like a professional.

But.. Haha, she is just a ordinary hair stylist.

But she's good. At least the best in all the hair stylist I met.

If not I won't went all the way down to AMK just to cut a hair.

I have persuaded Porky to get into the " Set a goal " mode.

And our goal is to get married and save alot money before that.

If we fail, We just break the Pork Bank and split the money.

Heh. It's just a goal for us to work towards to.

It doesn't mean we have to WORK towards to.

I mean... We have to! But .. Nvm.

Well. I wish we can make it.

Muahahahas.

I am tired.

Gonna go sleep.

Work tomorrow.

B-O-R-I-N-G.

ROARS. I gonna protect my country!!!

No nonesense!

Without Singapore, There won't be FAT PORK!

And all my friends. My brothers. And Sister!!

1. Junyi

2. Yong Yeow

3. Cesc

4. Dongxu

5. Soh Hwee

6. Hey I think I only got 5 friends.

Haha. Bao's at home playing mahjong again.

I wonder where she get to know so many mahjong legs from.

I have some serious infection.

So serious I hate going to toilet now.

It's hurt when I urine.

So sad. And is like everytime 10 minutes I need to urine.

I am getting old.

Last time shit got blood.

The doctor put test tube into my asshole lohs.

Then after that say, " Oh nothing much lahs, Overheat nia "

Kanina!

I will never forget her face.

Stupid bitch.

Anyway.....

I think I got some Shopping Diesease. (SD)

I suppose to go to this woman clinic this morning.

And I can't find it.

But on the way searching.

I think I spend like $200.

Slippers. Faceshop.

Shirts. ETC ETC.

I won't even let off things like batteries and tiger palm.

Lols. I am really sick.

Tomorrow sailing onboard Gallant.

Have to sleep aft mess. T_T

So sad.

Lols.

Friday meeting my elephant for dinner.

Hmmm. Porky is coming with me.

Hehehe. I hope they get along.

I love my porky.

I love my porky so much I decided to go fasting.

I am getting fat.

When I hug him I can feel his huge stomach against my not so big stomach.

MUAHAHAHAS.

But there's still stomach.

I bet nobody understand what I am saying.

But nevermind!

No eating onboard Gallant.

3 days 2 nights for $400.

And I spend it on ps3 for Porky birthday present.

But I think I playing it more than him.

I wonder what so important that their people can't sail.

Hmmm.

I am going to sleep soon!!!

My fat porky is running now.

So cute. Haha trying to cut down weight.

Muacks I love my porky.

There are times.

When I felt so sad, I swear I will never comply to your anything anymore.

There are also times.

When I felt angry and have to keep it to myself.

Seriously I felt like spamming all the vulgarities and my powerful

middle finger into your face. But of course not. XD

There are a few times.

I felt down and you didnt notice.

I thought I said something about "What a stupid guy"

But then there is never a time.

That I stopped loving you.

Hehehe.

It's good to have a laptop.

So you can bring it around, not just your house.

I am currently lying on my bed.

In a very comfy position.

And blogging.

Thinking that I should blog more often now and then.

Because I am at home. And kinda feeling talkative.

And there's no one to talk to and this late hours.

Though I have 300+ dolls.

But I assume they are sleeping already. =D

So just let me talk.

Let's see.

I am currently thinking of when I first join the SAF.

Before I join, I was free like a bird.

I fly everywhere that is flyerable. ( HEHE MY own ENGLISH )

But then I was spoiled.

And bad temper.

Keep bullying those weaklings in school.

Muahahahas. I sound so bad.

And worse, Not much allowance.

No money = die/dead.

As you all know I spend at least 1900 (all my pay) a week.

Because my salary always last for just a week.

Sad.

Then I join the SAF.

I become somehow, still a bird.

But can only fly when people allow me to.

Is like a million birdy marching together.

And I am one of them now.

LOLS!

I got friends. Though we don't really hang out together.

I always wanted a friend.

Just one.

One that I always have her/he in my mind and.. you know.

Eat lunch together, go out together, play together, taung together.

Go to work together. Endless topic.

And just everything together.

Like elephant and me.

Anyway, I am meeting her on friday.

It's like a meet the boyfriend gathering.

Muahahahas

Bleahs.

I am getting sleepy.

Goodnight.

I love my little porky.

My cute little porky.

My fat fat porky.

MY PORKY.

MINE!

why do i feel like i am under control?

My throat hurts.

I hate it when I have to face a mistake I make.

And then have to crack my brain on how to salvage it.

Duty again.

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I love my Pork Pork.