Watch the movie, Legend of Chun Li.

The starting was abit bored and lame.

Then it get better and better. Still, I will rate it C.

Guess the next street fighter movie gonna be about

recruiting RYU. Kinda stupid.

Now my sister want to be like Chun Li.

Trying to do the leg kick while her head on the floor.

She is crazy.

Tiring day.

Haven slept well for the past few days.

Today shippy went ID liaos.

Wee.. And as a female, I got not much duty.

Hmmm. Should be quite free this whole month.

My dearest Bitches!! ---> Soh Hwee, Dong Xu, Huiyu and all.

Please, Jio me out for some fun someday!! Thanks.

I love you bitch.

I love all of you.

Muahahahahas.

Okay, finish work about 8pm lohs.

Lobang my CWES car again.

Taking his car always made me want to say my last word to those I love.

It's like rollercoaster. Or worse.

At least rollercoaster got a seat belt.

It's not like he got no seat belt in his car, but he always say

is dangerous to put seat belt on because if the car peng, then very hard to climb out.

Lols. Sister trying to steal some of my under-garment again.

She's irritating.

Reach home, then bath. Then go out.

Walk the pasar malam.

Bored lohs. Was looking for a decent purse.

Bleahs.

Just trimmed my eyebrow, By myself.

Gonna sleep soon.

Need to sail tomorrow.

T_T

I am not stupid.

But I don't want to tear your mask.

I like living in lie.

I hope, we can just continue lying forever.

Hmm, not good for health.

Bleahs.

Very very busy day!!

It's family day!!

Today I am the working party.

I made alot of balloons.

So fun.

But I hope this is the last time.

Secure about 7.30 pm.

Went to eat teppanyaya with Lee Lee, Cesc And Veg.

Hmmm, I hope I can control my temper sometimes.

Always scolding Veg.

But, hope that he can change.

Don't wanna see him get bullied anymore.

I have friends! So Happy. =D

Tomorrow going to go shopping with BAO.

I gonna buy myself a camera and a purse.

And that all for this month!!

Oh my god.

Shopping make me drool.

Alone at home.

Mummy and Daddy went to battlefield again.

Bao Bao book in.

Cheok cheok at PoPo house. =( I am so lonely.

But going to meet my john johnie soon.

In 10 minutes time. SMILES!

MUACKS. MUACKS. My Cute Fat Little Sweet Handsome John Johnie.

10 years ago.

I on my light and fall asleep fearfully.

I fear for story book green monster.

I fear I might be abducted by aliens.

I fear for paranormal kinda thing.

I fear my dolls might just come alive.

I fear the dark.

And now,

I off my light and sleep. Like a pig.

I want to see story book green monster.

I FEAR that the aliens are scare to abduct me.

I want to help a ghost! To become a detective and gave her justice!

I wish all my dolls are alive.

I just love to off my light.

Be it morning, or night.

I always off my light. I can't sleep with lights on.

I want everything to be dark.

So I can see the moon reflection on my window.

And feel the breeze gentleness.

10 years ago.

I long for friends.

I want to wear high heels.

I want to wear some fluffy kind of skirt.

I want to be called the Princess, or daddy girl.

I wanna be the most beautiful girl that ever step on earth.

Where's my prince charming?

And now,

My friends all vanish into thin air.

The kinda of feeling that is, I am no longer rejected by others.

But I realize I am the one rejecting.

I hate heels. It bite!

Skirt - BIMBO.

Maybe the princess of vulgarities, fist and middle finger.

No more daddy girl.

I think I am the most beautiful on mars.

I don't need anymore prince charming. It hurts.

They aren't charming at all.

They are mushroom.... ( well, I dunno. It just pop into my mind )

They appear fanciful and pretty attractive and if you are so dumb like me,

You just got poison forever.

Or maybe, WILD BOARS?

Might just crush your life and leave a scar.

What mended is, but patched.

Patty, Miss Patty.

I love you.

If there were no one out there who are willingly to be your friend, I will be.

If there is no souls out there want to love you, Let it be.

Cause, I love myself. I won't let you get hurt anymore.

My poor heart. You must be painful.

I bought box of handiplast.

It was meant for my leg though.

But I guess handiplast can't stop blood from gushing.

Don't be sad anymore heartie. I promise, I won't let you get hurt anymore.

Please, I promise, promise.

I would like to spend 10 minutes of my beauty sleep

to tell you, about him.

As I am freaking, well not really freaking, kinda tired right now?

Hmmm Okie... Wait. I watch the unborn just now.

It's SCARY. I guess all horror show are meant to be scary.

Haha so what the hell am I talking about?

Okie. It's really scary.

Then I took a cab home. Oh, I forgot to mention that I spend

$ 400 on shopping today. Oh my god. It feel DAMN good.

I guess this is one of the way woman release her stress.

Well, It's really working! So girls, Go shop like there's no tomorrow!

I wore heels. Now my feetie is erm... Kinda like a mummy.

I stick a piece of handiplast here. And a piece there.

And some over here, and some over there.

Can you picture it? Haha.

Elephant is suppose to meet me today.

But she aeroplane me. What great friends I have.

I guess people don't have a best friend that will aeroplane like so OFTEN.

Well, She's forgiven.

I met up with Mr. Naggy instead. I choose to use a nick for him

as I don't wish to be tekan onboard.

Anyway I guess everybody knows who I am referring to.

Bleahs... =P.

Oh plus Hanyong. Er hmmm, we then watch the unborn together.

It's really really really not scary at all.

Cause I covered my eyes like throughout the whole show.

Manage to peep some scary part though. So It's really scary.

So peeps, if you ever wanna watch a horror movie,

Watch it with somebody you love.

Back to main topic.

This is how me and my baby john met.

Er Hmm...

Once upon a time.. There was a beautiful little girl. ( Which is of course me )

She was told to play for SAFSA Tennis.

During her training, She been wondering who gonna be her partner

for SAFSA as she is playing mixed double.

Then, One day, her instructor, Mr Wilson bought two handsome man with him.

Man.. It's hard to continue talking like that. Let's just be normal.

Except for the beautiful little girl part.

Okay, First of all, I did not fall in love on first sight.

I had this bad impression on you. Because you were so talkative.

And you speak good english.

You are freaking handsome.

You are damn attractive. But didn't attract me. Cause, I am not a bee.

=P Anyway, you are just perfect.

The way you play tennis, makes me drool.

I always had a puddle of saliva on the floor where I stand.

And, The way you hmm.. the way you.. YOU are just so freaking cute.

So cute that you are a freak.

I missed those day.

Those day, where you encourage me and said I will not lost.

And I won six game in a row. Til i met this fat bitch, and lost to her

Cause I admit I really did underestimate her.

She was so fat I thought she can't walk!

Er hmm, and the day, I said I wanted to woo you.

And the every morning you said you wanted to do 5bx before the competition

and I thought it some running and warm up but it's actually

SHITTING in the toilet LOLS.

And I know like at the last few days of the tournament loh.

Since you always come back sweaty. So I believed you.

The day where we first went out to VIVO. And you fold me a flower.

When I just randomly say I want a flower.

And the first horror movie we watch.

So scary till I just accidentally hold your hand and also so accidentally

lie on your shoulder.

SHIT. IT'S REALLY ACCIDENTALLY. YOU GUYS MUST BE THINKING I PURPOSELY RIGHT...!

The thing is, you are not always there when I need you.

And you are there, when I just need somebody.

Heh, Chimology.

I need you.

I am so selfish.

I just don't want your wish to come true!!

I hope mine come true!!

The day I celebrate my birthday, I wish for my rashes to go away.

And maybe strike for a lottery. So I can shop again and buy more heels.

And if my feetie gonna turn into a mummy, I might just buy myself a new feet.

But the cake you bought it for me. I wish for ...

You know what I want. I won't said out.

Cause it won't come true if I said it out.

John John. I wanna thanks you for being so handsome.

And thanks for the hug, the aura around you that make me ...

erm how to say? That aura around you that make me.... " Omg i love you "

You know? All the huggies. And all the kisses I need ( P.S You still owe me like 1000 )

Today is so John Johnie.

Everytime, I feel scare. I want to be with you.

I want to accidentally hold you hand again. SHIT I AM NOT PURPOSELY.

And lie on your shoulder, smell the smell of your baby hair.

And then look into your gonna pop out eyes. ( he is not a chihuahua )

And follow by a slimey sticky tongueing ( is that such word? But!! That's how I feel!! ) kiss.

MUACKS!

It's early. Woke up by elephant.

Keep screaming on the phone to wake me up

So we can go shopping!

Bleahs. Why are girls so troublesome.

Gonna go.

Why do god create all sort of different kind of humans.

And gave us different kind of looks.

And a made us have lots of different kind of feelings.

What do you call that a kind of feeling, that when you woke up,

You feel like strangling all the dolls beside you, yet you don't have the mood

and strenght to do that. And that kind that you wanted to just scream

at the top of your lungs ( dunno why lungs, following the book ), but for me, is

scream at the top of my heart, cause my heart wanted to!!! Not my lungs and cry.

But can't because of don't know what reason.

And always smile and laugh and make yourself like a idiot when you are out.

I dunno who am I now.

I been have weird kind of feelings lately.

I been doing things that I am not suppose to.

I dunno what I am doing.

Watched the Shopaholic.

The show I've been waiting for a long time.

Ever since I read the book, I always wanted to be a shopaholic.

And I am going to go fulfill my dream tomorrow.

It might just make me happy.

John, John, John... John.. * Kisses *

Where do I belong.

Who do I belong.

A Mixture of me and me.

Why should I tell myself not to be sad when I want to!

And why should I tell myself not to be happy when I am not suppose to.

I can't be angry. I don't want bruises all over.

I can't be soft-hearted. People pushing me around.

Why am I suppose to be.

Let's just sleep and wait till tomorrow.

I will definately feel better after shopping.

Gonna buy myself lot's of dress and skirts.

It's time to change.

You are no mother of mine.

I've change.

I say no means no.

I am not like a dead kinda rag doll anymore.

What have I become?

I dunno. But I like it.

Anyway, I am always been like that.

Since young, She's always on your mind.

She always the thing you praise.

And she is the only daughter you see in your eyes.

I grew jealous, It's just not so fair to me.

But not anymore. I found out that I don't need love to live.

Not from you, And not from bastard who play with feelings.

Not just bastard who play with feelings. All the guys are bastard.

I hate you. I freaking been cursing you everyday.

I won't drop a tear if you die.

Just some fucking bitches to me.

Fucking low life. GO suck a dick.

I am sick of getting happy everyday.

My chief can be irritating at times.

But I found out that he is actually quite fun!!!

We have a fight today.

Real Fight. It's fun!!!

Went to eat Sakura. With all the QMs!

Kinda fun. Poor Vege, Nothing much for him though.

I was shocked when he said he never knew how prawn

taste like, the worse of all, SHARK FINS!

I am not really those meanies that will purposely

kill a shark just to eat it's fins.

But I will definately say YES to a bowl of already

COOKED shark fins. How sad it will be if you haven taste it before.

I have to put a sad face. Here.. --> = (

I went to CNB to study for my stupid test today.

I met Jac and Yulong. Jac face still very very black.

I mean, It's the same old face. Yeah. Not that I dun like it.

Just, Kinda wanna make her smile. Like how we go

crazy talking about guys in our cabin. And, erm.. lot's of things.

Study makes me sick.

I really got sick.

My stomach start giving out symptoms.

Begging me to stop studying.

And I see stars. *_*.

It's okay, the fun part is, I saw SUBMARINE!

I know I know, It's no big deal.

But, I wanna be the first human with breast and no long stuff

between my legs to STEP onboard a SUB.

OKOK, Not step. Be the first girl to be in a SUB.

SUB SUB SUB. Makes me think of Subway, those long bread.

Man, If is 10 years, I will wait.

Don't underestimate girls!!!

Hmmmm. My stomach grew smaller nowadays.

I ate like few pieces of SALMON and I start to feel bloated.

Forget to mention about the three bowl of shark fins.

But I used to eat like no tomorrow lohs.

Specially Shark Fins lohs.

Never Mind. Time to slim down too.

I told John John, I gonna start woo-ing him again.

But I really got no idea. Haha!

So sad whenever I think about such cute/handsome guy leaving Singapore.

And never come back?

OH, SAD FACE. Where is it. = (

I hope god stop confusing me.

But I really felt painful inside.

That day was the worse. I wont forget it.

I wish I could just forget. It's painful.

I don't like it.

I guess you are really tired.

But, I starting to feel really tired too.

I feel the old her coming back to me.

My chief make me realize, It's good to be someone else.

Like her. But, She's heartless. I don't want to be heartless.

Did I really do this kind of thing in the past?

I guess this is call retribution.

It kinda hurt me when I think how sad and lonely you gonna be

If I go away. But I guess I love you too much, and I forgot

to love myself. Still, I can't believe how strong I am.

Standing up and climbing up from the deep deep deep hole I fall into.

In just one bloody day.

Scolding and lecturing from around makes me open my eyes.

There's no such thing call taking a break.

It's either continue or no more.

Cause, trust me baby, things wont be the same anymore.

Ah huh, I finally fix my dumb blog.

I am back!!!

Well, First of all it's happy belated birthday to me!

I am twenty now.

Still feel young though.

Secondly, I want to celebrate my new life.

My freedom, My life without any worries or whatsoever

and most importantly myself!

Welcome back, myself.

I realized I really should love myself more than I

love anyone else. =D

And, would like to thanks Mr John for celebrating my

birthday with me. It's super romantic.

I still can't believe it. How can you be so handsome.

*drool*

Love ya John!